I guess the only answer I could really give you to how long it took simply came down to the general message of what you said that night. Even now, I can't remember the exact words, but I know exactly what you meant. It's... complicated, to say the least, so I don't think I could even fit it here to begin with.

Things wouldn't be the same as back then- they can't be. I also wouldn't want to make the same mistake of my own complacency and stagnation, so I wouldn't want them to be the same.

But yes, I'll give you time to think. Thanks for at least considering, by the way. And again, sorry for all the trouble, then and now.

And once it happened, your lack of any full-fledged effort and response to try and reconcile the friendship just made me think it was true.. and that you didn't really care about me anymore.. Which only made it worse, and made me cry even harder about it.

I don't know what you've learnt about yourself since then, or where you are. I still don't know why it'd have taken you this long to try and make contact again if you still truly valued me at all.. But regardless-...

Now my brain hurts and I just need some time to process the fact you suddenly just appeared again out of the blue. I don't really know what to think or do. Since even if we did become friends again, I don't know how much you'd really value it.. And if it would end up in shambles and just end the same painful way again...

I really don't know. What to think or do.. My brain will be trying to figure that out, I suppose.

I eventually unfriended you on that fateful night and final Minecraft session. After hearing that you were leaving again so soon, and you already having just played significantly less and less with me.. less and less days as time went on.. I feel like the spark of the friendship was just gone, and I thought you didn't really care about me anymore in place of whatever/whoever else was in your life...

And don't get me wrong, I absolutely never expected you to just make me your one and only friend, or to play and cater to me 24/7 of course, not even close... but I just felt like you suddenly drifted away so quickly within the span of a couple weeks..

I remember crying that same night it happened, and for several days after. It really hurt me bad... losing a friend that I truly cared about and treasured so deeply over such a sudden, short-span...

Wow.. you really valued me that highly as your friend?...

I'm really happy that I could've been there for you. The feeling is mutual, I really didn't get bored a moment of the time we spent together, truly. The experiences were always fun and memorable, and I genuinely haven't ever had any other friend like you either (in a good way)...

I always viewed you as quite fairly smart.. a rare oddity in this day and age. And always thought you were kind, and relatively thoughtful... It's not so common to meet people who think on a deeper level.. who wants to know and explore the why?...

But yeah. I just felt like you drifted away gradually.. I'm pretty sure I tried to ask you why it started to happen when it did, but I don't think that I ever really got a good idea of where you were at and why...

I just wanted to, you know, apologize for that ♥♥♥♥♥♥ move that one night, apologize for not being more clear with who I was and what I was doing- admittedly I didn't know back then, but I know now. And anyway, despite all that and some other stuff, you still were a great friend.

Perfectly understand it if you don't care, or don't want to try being friends again. I mostly just wanted to say this while I still remember it all.

Heh, I guess you did just the opposite to me honestly.

There's lots of things I could say, but the most important of it is that yes, I did fade away, though I didn't even realize that's what I was doing. And then there was that one night, and I did pull a kind of ♥♥♥♥♥♥ move just leaving you at the drop of a hat for something else that I didn't leave you aware of, and then you unfriended me (which considering what I did was totally understandable).

Dunno though, you never left my mind really. Considering you were a unique, fun, and cool person to hang out with and chat, and a lot more relatable than a lot of people I do talk to actively. I think we just related pretty well too, so I never really forgot you. Maybe stopped thinking every single day, but definitely kept thinking of you in passing moments.